CAN YOU 𝒯𝑅𝒰𝒮𝒯 YOURSELF TO 𝐹𝒜𝐿𝐿?

When things are at their hardest and i finally allow myself to surrender into it, i am always shown how life is happening for me.

Always.

I still resist before I get to that place of full free fall but not like I used to.
Not even close.

There is a bank or trust I've build up over time. Examples of when I've repeatedly leant into discomfort.
And not just survived,
But Thrived.
When, after falling into the void, I am shown so much grace.

It still hurts.
It's still exhausting.
It still takes all of me to the very edge.
But my bandwith expands every time.

When I surrender to what truly wants to live through me, over and over again, I add to my catalogue of proof of my capacity.

Each time I gain a new example of what I can handle,
What I can embrace.
Even what I can welcome.

This morning life showed me again how she supports me.

I went to a class by the amazing Asher Bowen Saunders  (www.instagram.com/naginya_way/ ) a contemporary dancer and bodyworker.

She guided us deeper into the space and my body than i have been with any other practice.

Connecting us to our the music, the air, the floor and our bodies in a non-linear way and...she taught us how to fall.

How to trust my body (and my heart) to go that extra little bit and finding a way to land that is fluid, supported and safe.

Ahh, the irony.

So I'm discovering a new level of safety within myself
and
I'm learning how to lean into falling at a whole new level, a full body, integrated embracing of the fall and the excitement of what I might find in the process.

As she said "ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ɪꜱ ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ꜱᴄᴀʀʏ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰᴀʟʟ ɪꜰ ᴡᴇ'ʀᴇ ᴇxᴄɪᴛᴇᴅ ʙʏ ɪᴛ."